the formula of love it's tough ignoring someone that you thought so much of at one point in your life. i feel like i'm giving up... like i didn't even give it a chance. i'm sure he had his reasons, but all signs pointed to him blowing up at me some point and potentially hurting me.

and i think i'd kick my own a$$ for letting someone hurt me. not if i can stop it. hiyyaaah!

allen and i have been "dating" for quite awhile now. the way i classify relationships is that there is dating, boyfriend/girlfriend and then marriage. there are two levels of dating: 1) casual dating where you are free to date as many people as you want (gotta see what you like!), and 2) exclusive dating where there is an understanding that two people are only dating each other (cheating at this point is looked down upon, but forgiven). boyfriend/girlfriend is a big step up from exclusive dating. it's basically a label that you slap on with an understanding that the couple could potentially be in love with each other. cheating is definitely not tolerated. once love is firmly established, then comes marriage. it's that simple. the formula of love.

we've been "dating" for about 2.5 months. this is my longest relationship since jb (aka the dude that broke my heart so bad about 1.5 years ago out of nowhere). and as of sunday, we are now boyfriend and girlfriend. we haven't tried to sabotage anything yet. :)  ¶ 12:08 AM